chapter 2

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scarde and alone i sit in silence not making a peep trying to hide so i do not get hurt again but it fails he finds me and hurts me again and again. i try to yell but no words will come out of my mouth. i lye there still as can be and try not to look into his evil eyes and i try to disstance my self away from the family because know one understands what i am going thru. lost and cofused i try to find a different way to exsape. i had a theripist at the time but after like a month my mom stop bring me to c her. my mom also took me off of my meds.it was hard to deal with being depressed and suosdal and bipolor and haveing ptsd to add to it all i was no longer in treatment. when i was in the second hospital my dad called me one day and told me that one of his girlfreinds kids was moving out and i did not know y so i started to yell at him. he said that it had to happen and so i hung up the phone and ran to my room and hide in a couner and began to cry. not knowing what was going on outside of the walls of the hospital. when i went home i was forset to move back in to my mothers house scarde as can be.then i found out my dad was being charged with to counts of sexual misconduct on a minor. i did not know what to beleive at the time so i just went on trying to fight my own battles never winning at them. when i was about 16 my dad went to jail for the first time.