chapter 1

hey everyone


i lost my soul when  i was a little kid. got made fun of and abused in many different ways. so when i was 13 i dessided to try to take my own life thinking that there was no other way out. i ended up in my first phsyc hospital at the age of 13.I just could not take the abuse of anyone anymore so i thought it would be better to end it all. so while i was in the hospital i was surrounded by kids my own age going thru similar situations of abuse. I was sexualy astalted at the time for 4 years by my older brother.of course no one knew and know one  could protect me. i was scared and i felt alone and did not know what to do. i live with my dad at the time and it was a mightmare in progress his girlfreinds kids abused me physicaly and emotionaly it took alot out of me. i tried to fight the erges to hurt myself but they where to strong. so oneday i went to school i always wore long selve shirt and every one started getting susppitous and started to ask questions. one day they told me to lift up my selves and they found the scars of my first attenpt. so they disited to call in for a meeting with my parents and they were told that if i contiuned to hurt myself then i would have to go in to the hospital and i countinued and i ended up in the hospital. then two weeks later i ended up in my second hospital after i got out i had to move back to my mothers.the abusie still was there still feeling alone and scarde.